One day closer to my 2 appointments! I am getting super nervous about both! One is at 7:30 AM! So early! Those who know me know I love my sleep! The other is at 9 AM. Thankfully they are in the same area so we won't be driving around like crazy people.
Part of me wishes and hopes that the Clomid worked and this month will be a positive, while another part of me hopes I can get the surgery. 2 completely different outcomes. One will give us our baby, the other (hopefully) will make me healthier! I am just hoping for the best outcome either way. I am a firm believer of......If it's meant to be, it will happen. When Dave and I didn't get a house we put an offer in for, that was not the house for us! When the Biggest Loser didn't call us back after the casting call.....it wasn't meant to be. We can only do so much to better our chances of the best outcome, but it will happen when it's meant to happen!
We went to Target last night to get a pantry for the house we are renting. The pantry in the house has a leak in the back-we can't figure out if it's coming through the wall or form the sink. Either way, we had to throw away lots of food because everything was soaking wet. For the last couple of weeks we have had to store all our dry goods in plastic tubs in the living room....how fun! We finally decided enough was enough, we were getting some kind of storage for the dining room for the dry goods. We moved my mom's bakers rack to the other wall and put this tall pantry on the wall.....low and behold.....we have so much more room in the dining room now! And...no more tubs in the living room!!! Yay!! But anyway, we were at the Target and it seemed like everyone had an infant last night. As soon as we walked in...a pregnant lady, down the first aisle...a crying infant, down the second aisle...a dad with an infant in a car seat! Down the frozen foods aisle.....a babbling baby with her mom and dad.
You don't realize how many babies are out there until you have trouble conceiving, or you have lost one. Every story on the news about an abused child or a baby thrown away is like a knife in your heart. Why were they given the chance to be parents, but we aren't? So many questions run through your mind on a daily basis about everything! Did I throw away my opportunity to be a parent? I so desperately want to give my wonderful, loving DH a baby, so why can't I?
Well this blog took a sad turn didn't it? I will update tomorrow after my appointments! I am super excited and nervous!!!
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